they said.

katanya orang: "jangan nyesel jadi diri lo. karena pasti ada seseorang yg mau jadi  lo'
nyatanya? HIDUP GUE GAADA YG PERLU DIIMPIIN.


hidup gue sederhana, hampir dibawah sederhana.
muka gue pas-pasan.
baju gue 'gatot'
yg terpenting:
hidup gue ini ga ba-ha-gi-a.


gaada enaknya jadi gue. cuma enak karena gue punya temen yg selalu bikin gue ketawa{}♥
tapi mereka gaselalu ada buat gue.
kalo gue cerita, mereka malah interrupt dan.............cerita terus. (except you dear alma&tsaniya♥)


sebenernya, gue gabener-bener punya seseorang disamping gue.
kecuali kalo mereka lagi senasib. and have no shoulder to crying to.
or they just feelin lonely.


gue kaya barang di tempat lost&found.
diilangin, dicariin, dibuang.


ha-ha. life's unfair.


ada anak yang cantik bgt, pinter bgt, kaya bgt, eksis bgt.
dan hidup mereka ba-ha-gi-a.


and. I just made an answer song. wait for it(';

"BARU SADAR GUE DIMANFAATIN"

today.

yep. i kinda love today.

me, @fitrickk and @Danantyaa did a photoshoot at dempo.

it's kinda cool! gue kaya foto22 di taman22 gt.

tapi gambarnya belom di edit dan diproses. i promise, if i edited those image, i instantly upload to this blog.

did i say instantly?

btw. school.

i met him.

gotta go. xox.

Confessions.

i think..i owe you guys a confessions.

yes, i lied to all of you.
only certain people know this.

the: friends pain story.....
actually, raisa is me. and i just added somethin a lil bit. like: met at bp, or something like meeting like that.

i'm sorry i lied.
but i did it because. i don't want that guy know
just like that.

i'm sorry! love you!{}

what's best.

"what goes around, comes back around, hey, my baby"
yep. i think what goes around will comes back someday. even it's hurt or painful. it will. so watch your moves. make a good one.


"there was a time that i thought you did everything right"
like really? i even couldn't see what's the right, what's the wrong one?
yep. love. blind.


"boy i, must've been out of my mind"
yes. back there, i wasn't realize. it's a game. you were the user and i was the program. and you played like our ass wanted to.


"you show your ass, and i saw the real you"
then i saw you with another girl. and you showed up and felt playboy is a cool guy.
no. it wasn't. and it will never cool.


and i think, letting you go.
it's the hardest and best-est thing i've ever done.
but it's not for my heart.

Yep, We Did It!

Hari ini gue,om,tante,ayah,mama,bapak,ibu,mbak,adek,adek sepupu, dan lain22.
having a:

SURPRISE GRANPA'S BDAY PARTY!!

And we nailed it! sukses banget buat kakek gue nangis22. lumayan mengharukan. kita seneng22, karokean, mancing22 di Saung Dolken, Bogor. Itu super-duper asik. dan it's really huuuge. I L-O-V-E IT<3

lonesome.

Hey. I feeling lonely.
I really wanna go and scream, and scream, and scream.....
And let go every single pain in my heart, brain and body.
I wanna have friends that care about me..
I wanna have family who really got my back.
And I wanna have you! yeah you. I don't know if I am happy with you..
But there's a sparks in my eyes that I can't deny.
HAHA. nothiing..........................:$

and this s my feeling.

after years, i mvd on.
and i move, to a wrong guy.
why life is so mean? why love is so selfish?
pick the most beautiful, popular, rich, young, tall-girl.
to be the one who's lucky enough to be happy.
find their love. ea-si-ly.

life = unfair. love = unseen. me = unwanted.

screwed.

every pieces of my body, aren't worth it.

everything about me, aren't useful.

I wanna be you. the one who hold him in the hand.

I wanna be you. the one who have such a beautiful face.

I wanna be you. the one who everybody want to talk with.

Well, me? I'm the one who have nobody beside.

Well, me? I'm the one who have such an ugly face.

Well, me? I'm the one who everybody laughing at.

You're perfect.

And I guess.

I'm the screwed one.

Think I've got a crush♥

u must be watch glee project right? a new program that hunt new role for Glee 3?

if you watch, than you know..........................CAMERON MITCHELL♥

a hot,young,nerd,handsome, and nerd. I LOVE HIM♥♥

NO. I'M WRONG. I CRAZY ABOUT HIM

I collect so much photo of him. and now you'll see, the power of nerdy!:

Cameron;;*

 took it fr we♥it

cameron&damian bro forever!

 Cameron&his pals in glee project

so cute;3

KILL ME UUH xox

cameron w/ damian&hannah♥

the new bryce? i don't think so. he still cameron;*

power of a hot nerd!

 :*

 at the The Glee 3D concert premiere

came&damn.meheheh

AND YOU KNOW WHAT?

he write songs to. UH, HE JUST TOO PERFECT!

my fav is: Love Can Wait and Such A Mystery

you can see the videos in youtube :

Love Can Wait(lyrics video): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0ILs50-Eyw

Such A Mystery: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RJnMLBXm5VA&feature=mfu_in_order&list=UL

Favorite cover : don't stop this train - John Mayer : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4_vMiALYhGs

(P.S. HE IS SO DAMN HOT IN DON'T STOP THIS TRAIN COVER!)

pathetic.

you ask why? why it's pathetic? here it is!

u no what? my pottermore welcome email isn't in my inbox yet? like, DUH! it's not mid of august anymore, it's the last week in august.blah.

and, MY LIFE.


yep.the most pathetic thing in my life, my life it self.HAHA.
but, not all of it pathetic.i mean the patethic things in my life is the pathetic one, not all of it.

DUH! it's 02.02 AM in the morning. and tomorrow, i've got my holiday.BUDH! MY MOM WON'T GO WORKING! BLAH!

dishes, is waiting for me to catch on. buh-buy!

Past.

Hm.lo mesti tauu.
Kelas 7 gue gaseseneng sekarang.maksudnya, tementemennya gue seneng sih.
Tapi..............ada sesuqtu yg bikin gue sakit hatii.ada di post-post blog gye sebelumnya.

Lo tau ga?
Di kls 7, tmnnya asik. Tapi ada beberapa yg ngacangin,buang tmn*ups.*,ngomongin orang mulu, ngomongin merk muluu.capekk.

Temen yg paling baik waktu kls 7..? Alma&Tasya! Baek bet! Meheheheh.

Hahahaha.aalagi soal baya***. Ibu gue agak stress. Jadi gue ikut2an.hikz. sekarang. Temen gue lebih bnyak dan gaada anak2 mepi. Alhamdulillah. Jadi gaada anak pelarian0:)

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Bukbernya 8d!

Buka bersamanya 8d super asikk.double asik.here's the pictah:

it's edited.

me! yeay!!\:D/

me&@fatimaaMJ

8d together.w/ bu sudar;;*

HAHAHA.me.again

8d;;*

@salmaptr&@wheetywita&@fadhilap

together! left-right : me,@fadhilap,@salmaptr,@gentardion,adrian,@hfhzalfajri&@kimoagusman

 Super 8d!

 us:*

 me&fadhilah is like. TWOO! MWAH!::*

 New happy couple! @braamJW & @israyy(8g)

 @gentardion,me,@danantyaa&@hfhzalfajri

 us.again.

 us.again&again

 us.again&again&again.mehehe

 me&danan.before bukpus

 super mwah!

 super!

 us +@rinanti06

 me&danan.lovelove

 with @zatiazatlezat,me&dindaRatih

 SMOOCH!

edited.mehehehe

8D

mygod.believe it or not. i'm a lot-lo-lot-lot-lot happier in 8d more than 7d. yes, same 'D' but different friends? love it like a love song baby!.

It just like BOOM-BOOM-BOOM happy everyday like an autism. but each of us like be friends 2 days after we met. how fast.z

I just want you to know that maybe, thgis is the moment i've been waiting for. moment of joy where no ones live in pain.or revenge.uuu.sweet baby!SWEET!

100 facts about me.

read it or re-write it with yours.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: water
2. Last phone call: mum
3. Last text message: operator-_-
4. Last song you listened to: if you're not the one - daniel bedingfield
5. Last time you cried: this morning

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: no
7. Been cheated on: yes._.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: never kiss
9. Lost someone special: yes :'(
10. Been depressed: yes, but not always;)
11. Been drunk and threw up: nope,never.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. blue
13. blue-ish green
14. maroon

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2011)
15. Made a new friend: ofcourse;;)
16. Fallen out of love: maybe
17. Laughed until you cried: yes :'D
18. Met someone who changed you:yep:')
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes.andin
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yes HAHAHA wtf
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: nopenope
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: few
23. How many kids do you want to have: two;>
24. Do you have any pets: nono
25. Do you want to change your name: comfy with mine;;)
26. What did you do for your last birthday: shopping!!:D
27. What time did you wake up today: 3.30 AM
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: checking timeline
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: death
30. Last time you saw your Mother: an hour ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: mistakes,past
32. What are you listening to right now: tv : corage the cowardly dog
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i did
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: birthday! and something unexpected happens
35. Most visited webpage: twitter,blogspot, google, 21cineplex, youtube, 4shared, facebook
36. Whats your real name: Fadhila Iswi Deandra
37. Nicknames: Dea, Deandra
38. Relationship Status: single;)
39. Zodiac sign: Virgo
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary?: SDI Amalin&SDN Pesanggrahan 10
42. Middle School?: 19 JHS
43. High school/college?: not yet
44. Hair colour: shiny black;;)
45. Long or short: sedeng-sedeng gitudech.
46. Height: around 140-an
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: ..........
48: What do you like about yourself?: my courage;;) *ea
49. Piercings: nope
50. Tattoos: i won't
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS:
52. First surgery: never
53. First piercing: never
54. First best friend: tiara
55. First sport you joined: lupadeh
56. First vacation: grandma's around 1-3 months!;;D
58. First pair of trainers: ga ngarti

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: fasting
60. Drinking: fasting
61. I'm about to : finish this
62. Listening to: tv
63. Waiting on: ma birthday

YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids?: ofcourse
65. Get Married?: yongs
66. Career?: graphic designer or career woman;;)

WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes: which one do u like;)?
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: both
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: stomach
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive aja deh
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger: never
77. Drank hard liquor: no
78. Lost glasses/contacts: not wear those
79. Sex on first date: zz.no.ofcourse not!!
80. Broken someone's heart: i did.sorry:s
82. Been arrested: .....
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died: yess
85. Fallen for a friend?: hm?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: yes but not at all
87. Miracles: no, miracles wouldn't come if we didn't do anything
88. Love at first sight: yes :p
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: not my religion._.
91. Kissing on the first date: yes or no ya?
92. Angels: yep0:)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no
95. Did you sing today?: everyday;P
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: ever
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: waktu rai belom lupa temennya;-(
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: when i saw you you love me? HAHA
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: sometimes, but just let it flow mamend
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: 100% ;;)

glww

tau ga? lo tau ga? gue ounya temen namanya.....mmm... sebut aja faren(samaran...). gue 'sempet' suka sama dia. dan... gue sempet deket sama dia dia tahun2 awal sekolah. tapi yaagitudeh. ada masalah. and we were not that tight anymore.
dulu gue suka msn-an sama dia. dia asik banget. terus gue jadi adaa......... gitu deh. u no;).
terus, dia baik semakin lama semakin baik. tapi semenjak kita gapernah msn-an. dia jadi songong. gue nangis bgt kalo inget kejadian itu lagi. gue nyesek banget woy.. gue maunya....................everlasting happiness. demi deh. yah terus. dia jaian sama cewek lain. gue 'agak' nyesek. gasenyesek si raisa liat reno jadian sama pacarnya. iyaaaa. tapi itu dulu. terus gue liat dia have a 'crush' sama cewek lain. HUHUUHU ITU LEBIH NYESEK KENAPA YAAA. terus gue jadi glww gitu. ewew. padahal dia nyebelin banget. najong. ish asdfghjkl.
terus tau gak? dia kaya suka senyum-senyum ke dia gt. rawrr. sumpah yaa. galau. duh sana pacaran aja sana hushus-_-

hey bebh.

hidup itu pilihan.
lo milih yang mana itu terserah lo.
tapi ini jalan hidup gue. gue yang pilih. bukan LO.


lo tau gak. kadang emang jalan kita udh salah. gimana dong jadinya? perlu diperbaikin? gue gapunya mesin waktu coy.
dan lo tau gak? gue udh bikin pilihan slaha yg buat gue bisa nangis seharian, nyeselin semuanya.
OMG, this is terribly wrong.


:'(

ABOUT

Deandra.
I'm the kece-est of 'em all8-)


MSN(active e-mail) : deandra.i@hotmail.com
YM! : deandra_bluegirl@yahoo.com
skype : deandrasw


I'm a girl who tryin' to be someone that have a fuckin' perfectness in his eyes.
Love to be loved, open-hearted({}).
I ain't perfect. Sometimes pretending like somebody else.
I ain't a hero who save your days, I ain't a girl who can talk too.
But, I keep secret and tryin' to make your day great.


Amalina #04.10 ES #17.nineteen2013

cry.

sebenernya, gue pengeeenbgt pisah dari anak-anak 7d yang sekarang. tapi, di sisi lain, pengen juga bareng mereka terus yang super gokil. super mau nangis kalo liat foto2 kita dulu. wajahnya masih polos-polos, bahagia, tanpa masalah, asik-asikkan. dan dimana eksis bukanlah segala hal.
sumpah ya, bakal ada berapa korban baru lagi gara-gara ngeksis karena mau eksis?
pengenbgt liat lo yang duluu. sekali aja. sebelum kelas 8. sebelum lo, gue, pisah. haaa:'( memories will hurt ,e more if you not act as you used to. before....

my own pain:'

ginideh hidup kacung. cuma nemenin "tuan putri" turung tangga, naik tangga, sama ngerjain tugas. gue bingung, kenapa sih, lo ganerima gue jadi temen aja? daripada kaya nona. temen tetap aja gaada *sebenernya gue juga sih-_-* tapi paling nggak gue ada yg permanen (tapi gue lebih merasa jadi kacung).

nggak cuma bobo*nama boongan* doang woy yang ngacungin gue. lo, sama lo juga. udahlah gausaah ngelak. gue tau lo kaya. gue tau juga kok gue miskin. ke pim aja mungkin 1 kali sebulan. iya,iya, gasemua orang miskin jadi kacung woy. mereka butuh temen. dan yang lo mesti tau, itu semua alasan disekolah gue suka duduk, menyendiri. soalnya, gue merasa gaditerima. terus, waktu gue memutuskan untuk join, kalian bubar. bukan gondok woy, hati gue nangis.

yaa paling menurut lo post ini cuma sampah internet yang "not worthed to read". biarin aja. punya gue ini. kok lo yang sewot. lo minta gue ngepost tentang si nona yang muna? see yourself duude~. lo juga "hampir" sama kok. gue juga udah "percaya" lo ngacungin gue. makasih ajadeh buat semuanya. mesti ga ya gue berterimakasih? hmmm...............

GAPENTING.

Friends Pain part II

kawan, lo mesti tau. cerita "friends pain" ternyata berlanjut! dan ini, menurut gue. gue sih kasian yaa. gatau deh yang lain. terharu ato nggak-_-

Si Raisa, dia sering  bbm-an sama Reno. dia gatahan. dia gabisa move on kalo tiap hari bbm-an. akhirnya dia mau jujur. DIA BERANI JUJUR WOY! kurang apalagi-_-?

terus. akhirnya... hari itu datang. pertamanya, Reno nyapa dia. dia kacangin selama 2 harii! uuuu~. terus akhirnya, pas Reno lagi ga busy, Raisa jawab : "hehehehe" <-- ceritanya dia super ganiat-_-. terus ya, masa, gitude pokoknya. HAHAHA. nggadeng. abis ngobrol ina-inu-ita-itu. dia bilang :

Raisa : "Ren, sorry ya, kayaknya gue mesti delete contact lo sekarang. soalnya, kalo nggak, gue gabisa move on.  lo juga gamu kan nyakitin orang lain? mendingan sekarang lo gausah nyaoa gue lagi. delete conf. sama contact gue. gue mulai sekarang gakenal lo ya.. bye:("
Reno : "maksud lo apa Raisa? gausah gitu juga kali.."
Reno : "Raisa! Raisaaaa!"
Raisa : "apa? mau nyakitin gue lagi? udah ya."
......... *hening berapa lama*
Reno : "when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you"

katanya Raisa, sebenernya dia nge-fly banget. terbangbgt. tapi, gamungkin lagi. karena dia udah punya orang lain, dan raisa juga pernah di php-in sama reno (liat friends pain story).

Raisa sabar yaaa. mungkin ini yang terbaik buat lo! wyatb! :')

is it the end?

happy ending? nggak.

7D kaya udah mau pecah. yang satu main kesana, yang satu main kesini. gak kaya dulu. 7D solid banget. tapi sekarang? eksis sama yg eksis, yg biasa sama yg biasa, yg ga eksis sama yg ga eksis.
Apalagi lo. lo udah berubah banget. kalo gue jbjb (join bareng) ke lo, pasti di kacangin. gue sama sabina aja udah ngerti kok. sekarang, lo berubah.
kadang-kadang menurut gue, irza bener. "7D bakal pecah woy, gue udah bisa ngerasain" yap. you were right za.
alma juga kok. dia bilang :
          A* : "Al, kok lo gabung sama kita aja? asik looh"
          Alma : "nggak ah, nanti gue dikacangin lagi."




I guess. Now, I just sit here and waiting for a miracle: you change like you used to.

*orang yg sekarang udah beda lagi

I have a bad day,

yeah, blah-blah-blahh. I hate this day so damn much!. sekarang yg namanya temen udah pada beda semua. mainnya cuma sama anak eksis. temen lama yg nggak eksis dilupain. kacang lupa kulit. pengen banget ini pindaa kelas yaAllaaah:'(