You know trend these days?

yep, eyeliner. I kinda want to do it. but I don't have that perfect ulzzang face&modelling skllls. so crappy me(;

see? I warned you it didn't look like the ulzzangs. whatever, i'm happy:D

1.

you've seen the 1,2,3 post? no? but this post is related to it, but yeah, whatever.

knp lo mau disakitin? gue cuma mau lo dengerin gue aja.
please jangan jadi org bodoh.


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Edited.

Ini semua adalaaah editan-editan originally by me;;)

wanna see? wanna see? :D

here it is:

I'm just a rookie. btw, enjoy Xx

follow me~ @deandrasw

sesakit ini coy.

maaf ye. gue kalo curhat emang lebih suka pake bahasa inggris. bukannya sok bule tapi emang enak bgt. kata22nya pas brayy.

dan sekarang mari berbahasa indonesia!

jadi yg ke-2 itu, ngomong sesuatu. udah kira minggu lalu lah. dia frontal22 bilang:
'yakin lo mau ikut lagi? nanti keluar lagi kaya lo *piiip*'
gue langsung diem. stuck. gatau mau ngomong apa.

dan sekarang..gue kepikiran.
kenapa gue mesti bicara yang mancing dia ngomong gitu.............knpp?

kenapa orang yang bernama Fadhila Iswi Deandra ini bego banget.

oiya. btw, gue dibuat ngefly sama dia. seneng coy  scratch that gue BAHAGIA!

waktu itu, pagi22...lo bayangin kita makan kue bolu (ato kue mangkok) gitu..berdua. yaa gakaya di cerita22 kalo misalkan kita gigit langsung ber2 sih... tapi dia meng-ikhlas-kan kuenya buat ber2 dengan gue. <3<3

daaan banyak lagi.

dan dan dan! lo mesti tau..gue sedih banget.
ternyata dia belom bisa mv on sama mantannya yg super-duper -jahat.
HAHAHAHA de, lo kira lo bakal dapet orang sebaik sekece seunyu dia?

nggak.

hopeless coy. dan itu sesakit ini.

lo dan orang22 pasti bilang, 'kalo gitu move on aja... relain..'
tapi, kalo setiap gue udah terlanjur sayang sama orang terus dia kaya gitu, gue move on lagi?
jadi intinya, lo sayang untuk di-move on-kan. ngga kan?
putus harapan emang ada, tapi kalo setiap sayang orang harapan keputus mulu?
sakit ga coy.
semua butuh pengorbanan brayy.

quote-quote ter-'iye' :

"The truth is that everyone's gonna hurt you. you just have to find the ones worth suffering for"
                    -Bob Marley

itu kata Bob Marley. emang semua ada sakitnya........................gaada yang namanya happy start kan?

dan quote ini:

"One day, someone will walk into your life and make you see why it never woked out with anyone else."
                   -Anonymous

gue lagi nunggu nih bray. kapan gue bisa ngeliat dan ketawa.....knp gue bisa suka dia saat ada yg lebih sayang sama gue dan ternyata orangnya adalah orang yang selama ini ada di samping gue.

kalo itu bener kejadian, gue cuma beharap orang yang belom gue sadari itu tetep bertahan di samping gue.
karena gue pastti nemuin lo di ruang tersembunyi di hati gue :)

2.

GAAH! you know the 1,2,3. post I posted before?
(if you don't, click here.)
I think i'm in love with the second one.

but  wait.

I read in twitter, in @TheGoogleFacts, that, the physiological fact that, if you like someone less than 4 months, it calls crush. but if you like someone more than 4 months, it's true love.

So, I think it better I have a crush. with number 2.

GAH! he's nicer than I thought he was.
I really into him.

wish. me. luck.

4.

there's this guy. my friend told me, he likes me. thank god my blackberry is broken. so i don't have to talk with him.

enough for the english post.

yep. jadi ada orang ngasih tau gue, kalo teennya suka sama dia. tadinya gue gatau siapa orangnya tapi akhirnya karena ke-kepo-an gue yang sangat tinggi ini, gue tau B-)

namanya, adalah sayangnya we gasuka. haha. enough for this;;)

ARGH!

This is my worst day ever. from early in the morning, till now I write this blogspot.

ALL MESSED UP! EVERYTHING!

I didn't know what I've to do...then i decided to hear one of Coldplay most-best-song-in-the-world.

FIX YOU.

It really make my tears stream down my face. here's the lyric:

"When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you"

the one that I highlight, is the one that made my tears burst out.

I kept my smile all day in the school, I had to act like nothing happened But inside, I cried so much even I can't feel I have a heart again Cause it already tear into some pieces. And now, I feel sick. My eyes are burning and turn red. God, if you wanna punish me, please make it easier for me to pass it..............

So,  what's your worst day ever? Does it almost the same as me? Does it makes your tears burst out? Does do you want to pass the day............

Cause I wanna skip this day, please.

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2012♥

pain, hurt, laugh, tears, smile, dance.
Sorry, I haven't post since new year!._.
You kno what? I went to Kediri and mest some people.
I met some fans :$

okay, so whattt?!

and, my ex. yes my ex.

he's the one who accompany me. with text mssgs...............................
cause i was at kediri._.anyway, have a great year al!

Dndr xx

1, 2, 3.

maybe you're confused about the title. but yeah it's about 3.
I just feeling that, there is 3 boy. I kinda close to them, but................I dunno.

First, my heart officially empty. like E-M-P-T-Y.
and now I know, loving someone is good. but don't love him to much.
but, don't have a feeling at all is worst than you love someone who doesn't love you back.

Now, I felt this 3 guys like rrr. like what huh:/

First, he's nice, very nice, good at dancing, and a lil' bit closed.
i know his secret life, but not much.
He stared at me, for a lil' while. You just realize it when someone starring at you right?
And then, he cares. he cares. it's a bit awkward. I guess:/

And then this big guy. his cool, nice, playmaker, face? hmm average:|
he's a caring person. and it's about care for me. he's a great listener. and he talks about his probs too. it's awesome that our chat flowing like water. looove it.

third, there's this boy. he's younger than me. but he plays with ppl that older than him.
he's so handsome&cute. he's like to messing&joking around with me.
But, I never see him flirt the girls.

Now you see?
Emptiness makes you feel confused. there's too much decisions to make..........

they said.

katanya orang: "jangan nyesel jadi diri lo. karena pasti ada seseorang yg mau jadi  lo'
nyatanya? HIDUP GUE GAADA YG PERLU DIIMPIIN.


hidup gue sederhana, hampir dibawah sederhana.
muka gue pas-pasan.
baju gue 'gatot'
yg terpenting:
hidup gue ini ga ba-ha-gi-a.


gaada enaknya jadi gue. cuma enak karena gue punya temen yg selalu bikin gue ketawa{}♥
tapi mereka gaselalu ada buat gue.
kalo gue cerita, mereka malah interrupt dan.............cerita terus. (except you dear alma&tsaniya♥)


sebenernya, gue gabener-bener punya seseorang disamping gue.
kecuali kalo mereka lagi senasib. and have no shoulder to crying to.
or they just feelin lonely.


gue kaya barang di tempat lost&found.
diilangin, dicariin, dibuang.


ha-ha. life's unfair.


ada anak yang cantik bgt, pinter bgt, kaya bgt, eksis bgt.
dan hidup mereka ba-ha-gi-a.


and. I just made an answer song. wait for it(';

"BARU SADAR GUE DIMANFAATIN"

today.

yep. i kinda love today.

me, @fitrickk and @Danantyaa did a photoshoot at dempo.

it's kinda cool! gue kaya foto22 di taman22 gt.

tapi gambarnya belom di edit dan diproses. i promise, if i edited those image, i instantly upload to this blog.

did i say instantly?

btw. school.

i met him.

gotta go. xox.

Confessions.

i think..i owe you guys a confessions.

yes, i lied to all of you.
only certain people know this.

the: friends pain story.....
actually, raisa is me. and i just added somethin a lil bit. like: met at bp, or something like meeting like that.

i'm sorry i lied.
but i did it because. i don't want that guy know
just like that.

i'm sorry! love you!{}

what's best.

"what goes around, comes back around, hey, my baby"
yep. i think what goes around will comes back someday. even it's hurt or painful. it will. so watch your moves. make a good one.


"there was a time that i thought you did everything right"
like really? i even couldn't see what's the right, what's the wrong one?
yep. love. blind.


"boy i, must've been out of my mind"
yes. back there, i wasn't realize. it's a game. you were the user and i was the program. and you played like our ass wanted to.


"you show your ass, and i saw the real you"
then i saw you with another girl. and you showed up and felt playboy is a cool guy.
no. it wasn't. and it will never cool.


and i think, letting you go.
it's the hardest and best-est thing i've ever done.
but it's not for my heart.

Yep, We Did It!

Hari ini gue,om,tante,ayah,mama,bapak,ibu,mbak,adek,adek sepupu, dan lain22.
having a:

SURPRISE GRANPA'S BDAY PARTY!!

And we nailed it! sukses banget buat kakek gue nangis22. lumayan mengharukan. kita seneng22, karokean, mancing22 di Saung Dolken, Bogor. Itu super-duper asik. dan it's really huuuge. I L-O-V-E IT<3

lonesome.

Hey. I feeling lonely.
I really wanna go and scream, and scream, and scream.....
And let go every single pain in my heart, brain and body.
I wanna have friends that care about me..
I wanna have family who really got my back.
And I wanna have you! yeah you. I don't know if I am happy with you..
But there's a sparks in my eyes that I can't deny.
HAHA. nothiing..........................:$

and this s my feeling.

after years, i mvd on.
and i move, to a wrong guy.
why life is so mean? why love is so selfish?
pick the most beautiful, popular, rich, young, tall-girl.
to be the one who's lucky enough to be happy.
find their love. ea-si-ly.

life = unfair. love = unseen. me = unwanted.

screwed.

every pieces of my body, aren't worth it.

everything about me, aren't useful.

I wanna be you. the one who hold him in the hand.

I wanna be you. the one who have such a beautiful face.

I wanna be you. the one who everybody want to talk with.

Well, me? I'm the one who have nobody beside.

Well, me? I'm the one who have such an ugly face.

Well, me? I'm the one who everybody laughing at.

You're perfect.

And I guess.

I'm the screwed one.

Think I've got a crush♥

u must be watch glee project right? a new program that hunt new role for Glee 3?

if you watch, than you know..........................CAMERON MITCHELL♥

a hot,young,nerd,handsome, and nerd. I LOVE HIM♥♥

NO. I'M WRONG. I CRAZY ABOUT HIM

I collect so much photo of him. and now you'll see, the power of nerdy!:

Cameron;;*

 took it fr we♥it

cameron&damian bro forever!

 Cameron&his pals in glee project

so cute;3

KILL ME UUH xox

cameron w/ damian&hannah♥

the new bryce? i don't think so. he still cameron;*

power of a hot nerd!

 :*

 at the The Glee 3D concert premiere

came&damn.meheheh

AND YOU KNOW WHAT?

he write songs to. UH, HE JUST TOO PERFECT!

my fav is: Love Can Wait and Such A Mystery

you can see the videos in youtube :

Love Can Wait(lyrics video): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0ILs50-Eyw

Such A Mystery: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RJnMLBXm5VA&feature=mfu_in_order&list=UL

Favorite cover : don't stop this train - John Mayer : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4_vMiALYhGs

(P.S. HE IS SO DAMN HOT IN DON'T STOP THIS TRAIN COVER!)

pathetic.

you ask why? why it's pathetic? here it is!

u no what? my pottermore welcome email isn't in my inbox yet? like, DUH! it's not mid of august anymore, it's the last week in august.blah.

and, MY LIFE.


yep.the most pathetic thing in my life, my life it self.HAHA.
but, not all of it pathetic.i mean the patethic things in my life is the pathetic one, not all of it.

DUH! it's 02.02 AM in the morning. and tomorrow, i've got my holiday.BUDH! MY MOM WON'T GO WORKING! BLAH!

dishes, is waiting for me to catch on. buh-buy!